self examination and faith in Christ

I must confess that I involuntary doubt the scriptures as my mind struggles against God. This is expected, but not accepted; by myself in Christ and by God. I consider this an ongoing growth. Like growing in life.. one step at a time, you fall and get back up, you persevere and keep going. But beside all that there is a nagging pressure that keeps me steady. Pushing me up, driving my concentration to an absolute focus on Jesus. It's weird how my mind opens up to the gospel. It's kind of like wanting and reaching desperatly for a free gift, and with the necessary understanding that my mind is sick with pride, new grace is given with divine force and precise tenderness.
With my heart divinely plowed, thus springs a new birth. I believe this is true humility. It's awsome, and mind blowing.

Selfishness vs. The sacrifice of Christ

Jesus is no pill. He can't be ran to as if an asprin bottle. If saving grace is treated as such, it's possible that our approach could be selfishness, wanting a fix, throwing him back in the cubbard afterwards. This should not be, He is a heart healer! That is why He said repent... He knew we had more than a headache. He knew the heart of a man was unable and unwilling to bring himself back to God. You may ask, "why was the sacrifice of Christ necessary"? Because it was sufficient. To bring the lost back to himself. For His glory and His praise forever! This is the faith we rest and hope in.

.."fullness of God".. Ephesians 3:14-21

Into the light, was the metaphor of choice. Blantent honesty drove him deeper into their hatred. He cast himself among them to expierence, on their behalf, the result that their sin demanded. How do we explain this? Has this exhausted our understanding? Can we humble ourselves to see how God might favor the lowley? Just as the Son who He sent was? Have we rested in this truth?

Much distraction takes focus away, because some are scared to see the inner self and test their conscience. As one minute of quite would exspose everthing supressed by a constant sinful nature. Examine yourself to the perfection of Jesus Christ.... A mans heart is only evil continually. If this were not true, why the present condition? A mans pride sickens the world.

Why would One prideless come for the proud? think about it...

A world in question..

Where do we begin? With all beginnings there must be a purpose, and with every purpose there must be something, whole, and with all effort and faith sufficient to strive for...The journey between the two is the mystery that captivates us all.. Unto the end we will ride.. A journey in truth, finding our purpose we will reside.

One wise man said, Truth: Loved by some, hated by most.